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Indradyumna Swami: Throughout the morning I preached to her and led kīrtana. I was praying intensely to Śrīla Prabhupāda to give me the proper words to say at such a crucial time. Her loving attachment to me had awakened a strong attachment in my heart for her. I also prayed to Kṛṣṇa throughout the day to please let her leave her body in full Kṛṣṇa consciousness. I noticed that every so often she would begin to choke on mucus in her throat. When she was unable to clear it, her eyes would bulge in fear. During those moments we would raise her up a little so the mucus could flow down her throat. I would pray to Kṛṣṇa, “Please let her go peacefully—let her be able to remember Your lotus feet at the moment of death.”

Although her condition was deteriorating quickly throughout the day, I was amazed at her clear consciousness. Towards the end of the morning she expressed the desire to ask me some questions. Gāndharvikā Giridhārī translated, first by putting her ear next to Vraja Līlā’s mouth to hear the question, and then after my response speaking loudly into her ear.

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