Vraja-līlā

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Indradyumna Swami: When it became clear to me how much Vraja Līlā was dependent on seeing me, I arranged a flight from Warsaw to Delhi as fast as I could. When I arrived in Delhi the Vṛndāvana devotees picked me up, and we drove straight to Vṛndāvana. By this time I knew that Vraja Līlā may not be alive when I arrived, and I was praying to Kṛṣṇa to please let her live until I could see her. Halfway to Vṛndāvana we came upon a huge traffic jam that delayed us more than two hours. Finally, we reached Vṛndāvana and the Kṛṣṇa-Balarāma mandira. When I got out of the car I ran straight to Vraja Līlā’s room. As I entered, I was struck by the intense spiritual atmosphere. Everything was very clean and pure. There were many devotees in the room having kīrtana, and everyone turned to see me as I walked in. The looks on their faces were a mixture of happiness and sheer astonishment. Vraja Līlā’s constant meditation that I come, had become everyone’s meditation. When I walked into the room I think everyone felt that Kṛṣṇa had answered Vraja Līlā’s sincere and heartfelt prayers.

I immediately went to her and began speaking. The room became quiet as I spoke very slowly, choosing each word carefully. Siṁha Rūpiṇī dāsī managed to record our conversation.

“Vraja Līlā, this is your spiritual master. I have come a long way to see you because of your very sincere desire to see me. I want to thank you very much for bringing me to Śrī Vṛndāvana-dhāma. This shows how the love of the disciple can control the spiritual master.

I have come here to be with you at this moment of your final test. I want to stay with you, speak about Kṛṣṇa, and chant the holy names of the Lord into your heart. Hare Kṛṣṇa, Hare Kṛṣṇa, Kṛṣṇa Kṛṣṇa, Hare Hare, Hare Rāma, Hare Rāma, Rāma Rāma, Hare Hare.

Because of your sincere devotional service to your spiritual master and the Lord, Kṛṣṇa has allowed you to come here to Śrī Vṛndāvana-dhāma. Now you can leave this world very peacefully in the association of so many wonderful devotees.

Be detached from all worldly things. Take the mercy of the Vaiṣṇavas in the form of their wonderful association and their prayers for your deliverance back to the spiritual world. Have no fear. See everything here as an arrangement of Śrīla Prabhupāda. He is giving you his blessings. Become completely detached from your material body and all material desires.

I am here now, so you are safe. We’ll have kīrtana and chant. Just fix your mind on the chanting and the pastimes of the Supreme Lord.”

[At this point I chanted Hare Kṛṣṇa to her for five minutes and then continued preaching to her.]

“Vraja Līlā, it was here in Vṛndāvana that Śrīla Prabhupāda spent his last days. He showed us how to pass the final test of leaving this material body.

The living entity has an attachment to the body because it is the place where he can satisfy his material desires. But a devotee strives to give up material desires and take up the desires of his spiritual master.

I am very pleased with your devotional service. For so many years you have been my sincere and surrendered disciple. Now fix your mind on the pastimes of Kṛṣṇa in the association of the devotees here and listen to the chanting of the holy names.

Vraja, don’t be afraid to leave your body. Kṛṣṇa will help you. He brought you to this movement. He brought you into the association of the devotees and Śrīla Prabhupāda. And he directed you to your spiritual master. He has helped you in so many ways.

All your devotional service has been preparation for this moment, so that you can leave your body remembering the lotus feet of Śrī Śrī Rādhā and Kṛṣṇa. All the Vaiṣṇavas are here to help you, and we will all be chanting, so you have nothing to fear. Don’t concentrate on the pain, just hear the chanting.”

[At that point Vraja Līlā spoke her first words to me.]

“I need the mercy of the Vaiṣṇavas.”

I replied, “Many Vaiṣṇavas are praying for you. By their mercy you will be successful. You have the mercy of the Lord, the spiritual master and the Vaiṣṇavas.”

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